After searching for diamonds
at the bottom of the drain,
I hang my thoughts to dry
above my bed.
Osmosis by waterboard is my gateway.
vivid details in blue
silent screams of loss
floating through weightless relief
You've forgotten more than you've known.
I am the goddess you wish I were
in depths where you won't find me,
holding my breath for extraordinary measures of time
because I am best at pushing away.
When living paycheck to paycheck is a step up in the world,
and voyeurism is how we connect,
I will let you down in being human.
I wake alone
to twisted sheets and mud puddles
and a hollowness in my belly.
